Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new. 2 Corinthians 5:17

Then I rededicated myself back to the Lord.

When I saw the piercings all over my body, I had to question who I was trying to being sexy for? Who was I trying to get attention from? I felt in my spirit it was time to remove some of them. I thought about how I spent over $500 to have a needle pierced through my body. I also took off the beads I wore around my waste to make myself feel more feminine. In reading God’s WORD, prayer and in being led by the Holt Spirit I began to learn more and more about being a woman in Christ.

The WORD says, “It is not good that the man should be alone; I will make him a helper fit for him (Genesis 2:18).” I was born to be a helpmate. I was not meant to take on the role of a man (although it was an easy default). I was not meant to raise my child on my own (although it was an easy default). I was not meant to rule over men (although it was an easy default). In society today we see woman dominating in many areas. We see the emasculating of men on/in TV, radio, school and even our churches. Why? Because we are more inclined to appease ourselves & others to do what feels good rather than in doing what’s right in the eyes of God. 2 Timothy 4:3 says, “For the time will come when people will not put up with sound doctrine. Instead, to suit their own desires, they will gather around them a great number of teachers to say what their itching ears want to hear.” Nowadays everything is based on how we feel regardless if it’s wrong. We sometimes even create excuses to explain why it makes logical sense to do things.When the truth is the logic is built around our own feelings and experiences. We make things “sound” good to sell a dream when God has already given us a promise.

I enjoy being a mother. I enjoy being a woman. However previously, as time went on in my life, I felt that I had to build a tough exterior to protect myself. A tough exterior that did not compete with women but men. How could I be ready to marry anyone when I had the wrong view of men and women? When I had the wrong picture of myself. Being strong does not equate being masculine. Being strong does not equate being the head of my family when God created men to do that. Being strong isn’t doing whatever I gotta do to get by. Being strong is when under great force or pressure you still stand for what is true even if others oppose. Paul said, “My strength is made perfect in weakness (2 Corinthians 12:9).” As a woman, there is a role I am meant to play. I no longer have to oppose it, run from it, hide from it, reject it. I can embrace all that God has called me to be. I am the glory of a man and man is the glory of God (1 Corinthians 11:7). There’s no shame or competition in it as we are ALL one in Christ (Galatians 3:28).

Receiving this truth was not the easiest pill for me to swallow. Logically I did everything I knew to be right in supporting my identity, my strength, my actions in taking what I wanted, when I wanted it. In growing in the Lord, I asked Him to show me the truth; the unaltered truth. Whether I liked it or not. I Asked for His will, Sought for His way and Knocked until He opened doors (Matthews 7:7-8). What was revealed to me were characteristics within myself that were not biblical. What I found were experiences that led me astray and not towards my Heavenly Father. What I found was an uncomfortable truth that I could not ignore. I don’t have to run around trying to piece together who God created me to be because the pieces are already within me and only He can reveal them. What I must do is continue to seek Him in truth, follow His way and live my life according to His WORD. My desire is to remain obedient because in #DyingDaily my flesh is being put to rest so that my spirit can live.